“He has to be ready for it, Jess,” I say, my voice low and quiet.
Jesse nods. “I know. It’s just that I’m a fixer, and his broken-ass heart is the one thing I can’t fix.”
“No one can,” I say. “I can’t fix his broken heart. He has to be willing to be with me with a whole heart. There’d be pieces missing, and seams and cracks, but offered as a whole. I’m worth more than just taking the screwed up mess of him, just to have part. I want more than that—I deserve more. If he can get there, I’ll be here waiting. I’ve got nothing but time, Jess. I’m not going anywhere, and I told him that. I’m willing to wait—because I think he’s worth waiting for.” I smile at Jesse. “If he can get his head out of his ass and work on rebuilding his broken-ass heart, he’ll be worth having waited for.”
Except I’ve already waited so long. For him—for anyone, but especially for him. Endured so much. Spent so long alone, and lonely. And now James is RIGHT THERE, but still out of reach. My heart wants him, my body wants him, but my fears say he’ll only hurt me. And he himself says he’s not sure he’ll ever be able to get over the past—losing his wife. I don’t blame him, but…
How long can I wait? And if he does come around, will it be worth it?
Well damn, what an emotional read Screwed turned out to be, but it was definitely something I expected since we’ve learned about James and Nova. From the very beginning, we know that James had suffered such a huge loss in his life and it’s pretty evident that he’s still dealing with it. And if you’ve been following along with this series, you know that there was so much more to Nova’s story.
Jasinda seriously lays everything out with the final book in the Dad Bod Contracting series, even though I knew it was coming, I wasn’t quite expecting all the emotional whiplash right off the bat. Yep, she’ll bulldoze you with the emotions right with the first chapter. Ahhhhhh, my poor heart was breaking, which made me yearn for that happy ever after for the both of them.
The first chapter to me definitely sets the tone for the book. It gives you the sense of what Nova and James will be facing throughout their story. It wasn’t going to be easy despite their intense chemistry towards one another, but I was rooting for them 100%.
It was so easy for me to fall in love with both Nova and James. After everything that Nova has experienced with past relationships, love and loss, little by little she came out stronger for it even if she doesn’t always realize it at times. Her vulnerabilities are still there, but she’s a woman that absolutely knows her worth and doesn’t go at things half-ass. She’s honest and just wants the complete truth with everything. And I loved that’s what she always pushed for during her conversations with James. Plus it something he needed, that extra push to finally confront his feelings. Nova has definitely been holding so much in from her past, so much that not even her closest friends know. I was glad that she quickly faces and accepts everything early on in the book.
As for James, he has so much to work through and it really is so painful and your poor heart will break for the man. It’s as clear as day that he wants so much more with Nova, but he knows that he has to work on himself before he’s to pursue anything with her. It wasn’t going to be an easy fix, but every change he needed to make, he had to do it for him.
Screwed was such a solid conclusion to this series and it was a story that my heart just wasn’t quite prepared for, but loved all at the same time. And if you’ve been with this series from the beginning, the epilogue ties everything up in a perfect bow. I’m sad to say farewell, but am definitely looking for the next series that Jasinda will give us.
Major thank you to Megan and Jasinda for the complimentary reader’s copy!